I’m kinda running out of stuff to sell but I got this huge PSX lot going on for 3 days, so if you’re a LAST MINUTE CHRISTMAS SHOPPER go ahead and check out this lot of 26 Playstation games!

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Tha’s all I got today. Stay cool. B)

I GET IT. YOU GUYS WANT TO SEE LEFT 4 AWESOME. GREAT.

I don’t do requests because I don’t make a movie unless I’m inspired to. If a bunch of people say to parody a game, it’s literally pointless to me because I’m sure there’s someone who would want to see Karate Bikini Awesome. Everybody likes all kinds of video games and saying “I want you to parody this game” is telling me NOTHING. I mean, I appreciate all the support, positive feedback and what not, I respond to EVERY PM I get to the best of my ability, but about 80% of my inbox is filled with “suggestions” and it’s getting to a point where I’ve heard nearly every game title on the planet turned into “Awesome _______” and it’s even worse when a new game comes out because I get a surge of people telling me to make Awesome INSERT NEW SHOOTER GAME HERE.

I’ll make what I have ideas to make. End of story. Your suggestions, while appreciated, are pointless.

Anyway Ross got commissioned by Playboy to make 3 new Gamer Tonight episodes, and he has asked me to reprise my roles as all of the male characters. Awesome! In the pure fun I was having recording lines, I got the idea to record Richard saying the most common words in the English Language. Ross then turned it into a challenge, inviting Gamer Tonight fans to rearrange the words to make Richard say funny, vulgar, or just plain weird shit. Personally, I’m waiting to see some wacky songs, and just generally fucked up deranged edits of the records themselves, instead of just rearranging words. Get creative, guys, I’m excited to see the results!

I have TWO more awesome cartoons planned among other less developed projects including the two games I mentioned in an earlier entry and one of the awesome cartoons will finally break the mold of video game parodies and I’m taking my hand at doing a cartoon parody. What cartoon? It’s anybody’s guess.

Also I’ve been playing Tatsunoko vs Capcom lately and it’s pretty cool. It loses its flair after a while, especially since THERE IS NO ONLINE PLAY because the Wii is TOTAL BULLSHIT. If there was more of a competitive circuit around my area I’d probably play it a bunch more but the lack of online play is ridiculous. Online play is the standard right now and if Nintendo can’t keep up they need to fuck off.

BUT I really want to look more into the Tatsunoko series after playing this game, and I think I’m going to do just that. Maybe I’ll talk more about that very soon when I do.

So I’ve been acting on all that shit I’ve said in my last post. Maybe not to an extreme extent, but to a point where it certainly makes a difference.

I’ve always known entertainment has been a huge part of my life, so I’ve been indulging in it more. I’ve made it a point to watch a new movie almost every morning to get me pumped, and it works pretty well. All things considered, the basic energy of a film, the analysis of the storytelling, character development, etc etc, it all inspires me in one way or another and gives me a different outlook on my day than just waking up and working.

I’ve been playing Fallout 3 a lot lately, too. It’s a game I thought I would hate but I’m strangely intrigued by it. I think what I like most about it is the huge world, and in the way it’s presented I’m not hugely pressured to accomplish any and everything. Games where you’re given a central goal that also allow you to explore and do your own thing are very frustrating for me because I’m always caught in the conflict of which is more important to the game. In a game like Fallout 3, though, the goal isn’t to save the world or anything, it’s just to find your dad. It’s a goal I’m not particularly interested in, in fact, I’d much rather help out side characters because their quests yield rewards for me. So I’m just really walking around this huge world exploring and learning and scavenging and battling. It’s fun.

I also enjoy the 50’s esque Dystopian world and that helps a lot so please don’t suggest I play Oblivion and Morrowind because I don’t CARE about those boring universes. I have never been interested in that very American Lord of the Rings inspired fantasy world with elves and orcs and shit. In fact I think Lord of the Rings is one of the most boring movie series ever.

Also I think I misjudged Left 4 Dead, it was a lot of fun after playing through a whole scenario last night. But as usual I hate the 1st person view. That’s one thing I loved about Fallout 3, you can switch to 3rd person and play in it forever. THANK GOD. I just wish they’d fix up the targeting in 3rd person, but I’m willing to live with it in order to not have to play the game in 1st person.

Anyway I’ve been feeling a lot better lately, thanks for all your kind words, I didn’t expect so many people to be so supportive! I’ve just been taking a much more chill approach to life right now and it feels very familiar and comfortable. I’m still working pretty hard but I’m not stressing out over taking some time out to not work hard, haha.

Take care ya’ll.

Hi folks.

I came back from spending some time with Suzy which was a lot of fun and much needed. I miss her on a regular basis and getting to see her again is always a very good thing. She shot some AMAZING pictures, some of her best yet in my opinion, check them out!

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I was there with her fortunately and got to see her work. What a professional! She’s the best at what she does there’s no doubt about it.
I’ve been working like a madman on a few projects… 2 games to be exact! I don’t remember if I mentioned them before but yeah, they’ve been taking up nearly all of my time. I haven’t had a chance to game, really. I played a bunch of Silent Hill Homecoming with Suzy, and it’s okay, a really mediocre Silent Hill, but it’s fun because I’m playing it with someone I love. I’ve noticed I’ve enjoyed playing games with other people more, whether it’s watching them play, or playing with them, or having them watch me. Do you get that way too? Even if it’s a huge quest type game, I usually enjoy it more with company. I’m glad I have company who’s willing to sit down and watch a 1 player game and not be bored.

I really need to game more… I feel like my work has taken up all of my time and I really need to find time for myself to relax. I feel so guilty not devoting my time to working, and that really stresses me out. I guess it’s all the pressure I feel to be the best, do my best, and I’m kinda losing sight of my old ideals of having fun and being comfortable doing things. I suppose I’m driven towards the goal of getting to the point where I can do that, where I’m financially stable to just relax and do what I want, but I just always need a project to work on. It’s weird because I wasn’t always like this… it’s just something I’ve developed. I think from all the pressure I feel as an artist who has a ton of eyes looking on me. Not that I don’t enjoy it, but I think it’s changed me some.

I remember long ago I had that idea of moving to the mountains or something and just exploring art for a year or two or something like that. Nowadays that kind of thing seems like a waste of time… but I still feel that deep inside me. I kinda wanna not have my heart pounding every second over all of the things in my life. I’m such a worry wart now and I don’t think I ever was, or at least was to the extent that I am now. I’m always so paranoid of what people will think of me, how people will react to what I do. I guess being in the public eye and having people expect things out of me does that to you… and I guess it’s just something I have to overcome. I just miss being opinionated, strong, fierce, focussed. I mean, part of me is focussed… moreso than ever… but I’m not focussed on all of the right things. There’s a lot about me I still don’t understand, and it’s a journey I still need to take.

I remember at one time I would say I had no regrets, and I’d never get depressed and people around me, everybody around me agreed with that. Those are the feelings I yearn for now. I get older and I feel like maybe it’s just a part of being older and transitioning into manhood, or maybe it’s just a part of everything that’s been happening around me. Regardless, it’s something that’s happening, and it’s something I feel like I might not have control over.

It’s funny, I have more of a voice than ever, but because of having more of a voice, I feel limited by it. Like, I shouldn’t have a voice. I should be neutral. I’ve had a ton of people PM me and e-mail me asking how I feel about people criticizing me. And of course I feel a certain way about it, but I’ve never really spoken out about it. I say I don’t care, but of course I care. I care about everything I do. About every topic, I care. But it’s just been drilled in my head for so long from being on the internet and being involved with certain things to not care, that my opinion doesn’t matter.

I’m just really sick of that attitude. I’m sick of feeling like I don’t have a voice, and I don’t have an opinion. I want to speak out, decide, feel strong about things. I want to cry about things, I want to laugh about others. I think everybody should speak their voice. Even if there are people who don’t care, if it’s important to YOU, then it’s important.

Godamnit I’m all mad and excited. I guess it’s strange that I’m opening up like this in public but WHATEVER it feels good to let all this out to people like this. I had a Livejournal once and I would talk about my trite day every day. And I go back and read some shit, and I realize from someone else’s perspective, it sounds stupid and irrelevant, but to me, it was the most important thing in the world, and remembering that feeling is fantastic, it’s uplifting, it’s liberating.

I really need to care about myself before I care about others. I’ve been kind of bypassing me in order to entertain, care for, and live with others in my life. I don’t think that’s right. I think it’s right to care for others, but to completely ignore yourself in the process, and feel like an ass when you do something for yourself isn’t right.

I don’t care if you didn’t read all of this just writing it felt good.

Yes it’s true. Gears of AWESOME!

GOGOGOGO WATCH NOW.

So yeah, I came up with this one while playing a bunch of Gears of War 2. I got requests to make this one CONSTANTLY, and I thought I never would, but I kind of fell in love with the game and this popped into my head. :3

This one was definitely the most fun to make. Also I’d like to thank Tomamoto for doing a couple voices for me in this one! And I’d like to thank Suzy for her overwhelming support!!

So I just downloaded the New Xbox Live Experience and it’s cool. I’ve been watching Netflix movies today, completely free! (Well, you need a Netflix account, but I got a trial account). It’s really neat, and my avatar looks just like me! I’m not really interested in the games I can use my avatar in, but it’s still cool. I haven’t really explored it much yet, I’ve been playing with the Netflix thing, but what do you guys think of it?

Hey folks I just got interviewed again but this time I kicked it up a notch by not trying to be presentable and personable. You could call this interview a very raw, character driven look at Egoraptor WOWEE.

Click here to listen to it!

It was with a Smash podcast Show Me Your News and all they do is talk about Smash JUST KIDDING we talked about games and me. Some of it’s boring some of it is hilarious. Get your LISTEN ON.

Also I’m releasing a new awesome cartoon very very soon so look forward to this. Anybody who’s noticed a trend in the releases of my awesome cartoons will know on what day I’ll release it. ;D

I’ve been playing a lot of Gears of War lately and it’s been fun. I only like to play it online, single player is stupid unless you have a friend playing with you to make fun of it. The horrible dialog and cliché action movie bullshit is only entertaining when you view it with an ounce of cynicism. Anyway I have like 3 projects I’m working on right now… God I’m pretty exhausted from all of them. Like, I finished a shitload of projects and you’ll be seeing a lot of those soon but I always have more. I LOVE WORKING YES.

Anyway take care guys. I’ll see you SOOOOOOOOON.

I don’t know.

I played the Mirror’s Edge demo that’s available to download in the Xbox Live Marketplace. I’m still unconvinced, but intrigued enough.

What I don’t understand is why the first person angle was chosen. One of the developers said:

“Well I think at DICE we’ve done a lot of first person work, and so that kind of inspired us to create [this] — we wanted to create something quite urban, and we wanted to create a game that was all about movement.

I think the other thing was, as well, that we really wanted to create a connection with you and the character, and the fact that you’re playing the game through the eyes of Faith; as soon as you get to third person, you would be watching Faith, whereas we want you to be connected to her.

The analogy we give is “being in an action movie, instead of playing it”, and I think that’s more rewarding. And I think, also, we wanted to create something very fresh, and it’s been a challenge, but we’re really pleased with where we are.”

I can understand this artistic approach but ultimately I got sick a little and confused a lot. The idea is great, and honestly I commend the execution. The game is designed so that mostly everything (at least from what I’ve seen) is generally right in front of you, so that “flow” aspect works really well, especially since it doesn’t take too much looking around to find out where to go next. But the connection between the camera and the character’s head… I don’t know. I understand the parallel to realism but in real life I have semicircular canals that help me maintain my sense of balance and I have nerves that let me feel the area around me and I have peripheral vision to help me understand my surroundings. In this game I don’t have all that so when I roll or hit a wall and look at the wall for a couple seconds it isn’t really all that fun.

There’s some Prince of Persia aspects to the game but I can’t help but think I enjoyed them better in Prince of Persia. Like I said, I understand the art to the game, the feeling or mystique knowing you’re in the body of a character, that kind of thing, but as far as a game goes, the issues with vision are frustrating. It seems like I can’t really look around places I should, especially when I really need to, like when I’m dangling on a wall and all I see is wall and I have to look left or right to see where I’m going and my vision is super limited.

There was a point where I was dangling and I had to jump over to the other side onto a horizontal vent, but I couldn’t see the vent, and I turned around and she would just look down and not at the vent. I tried to jump over and over again but she wouldn’t. I just randomly shimmied left a little and then she jumped. There was a vertical vent in my way, preventing me from jumping on the horizontal vent I was aiming for, but the fact that I couldn’t SEE that vertical vent blocking my way was really annoying and gave me the wrong impression.

If my memory serves me correctly, there was a part where I had to zipline to a little platform but by the time I got around to that point I sorta couldn’t see that platform. I couldn’t look down at it. So I missed it.

I don’t know, this level of immersion the first person view adds just isn’t enough for me to forgive the problems first person games inherently have. I think fluid movement in first person games is rare because it just doesn’t really belong.

But, like I said, while I have issues with it I think they did a good job with what they have. I’m kind of eager to play the rest of the game to find out if it gets anymore interesting.

One thing I’m intimidated and disappointed with, though, is this gunplay thing. You can disarm guys by hitting Y at exactly the right time before they try to attack you. The gun itself will turn red for a second and during that time you hit Y. Even in the tutorial, I could barely see the damn gun turn red. In the heat of gameplay, I’m a little scared how confrontations are going to play out. And furthermore, this is a game about fluidity, motion, moving. These gun things are really stagnant. It seems like they break the motion. In the demo you encounter guys and you can disarm them but I opted to just knocking them out and continuing running because running is kind of satisfying.

I’m perplexed by the game, torn, indecisive. I’d like to play the full game.

I asked in my last post for a game that I can rave about, a really great game.

I also mentioned that I played a bunch of games recently that were lame but cool, I’ll tell you what they were.

Gears of War 2 was one of them and it was very typical although it has kind of a somewhat unique feel, but there’s no shaking the samey-ness of an over the shoulder shooter. A lot of the levels were boring but there’s this stomach level man it was cool. Multiplayer is fun, but I still have issues picking out enemies from friends on some levels. It’s a very very slight red and blue tint that is just frustrating to spot out sometimes.

Call of Duty 4 is a boring shooter.

Dokapon Kingdom lol it’s very interesting but way too intimidating. It’s a video game board game but it’s kind of like an RPG in that you battle monsters and level but too much of the map is huge overpowered monsters and you just kinda grind on the same 5 spots from where you started.

Mario Kart Wii is mega fun but I suck at it even when it feeds you items that are super awesome when you’re losing.

Replaying Mario Galaxy I can appreciate it again but the camera has major issues which is kind of what I was hoping the whole sphere world thing was going to fix. Oh well.

A lot of people mentioned Okami and Okami is one of those games where if it just had bland graphics nobody would give a shit because it’s not that great of a game. It’s like Zelda except less interesting and I hated the repetitiveness of it especially when I had to battle Orochi so many times and that’s a LONG battle. Also that flower spider boss… God was it like 4 times I fought that piece of shit? I kinda wanna replay it again in order to really dig into all of the elements of it because I really just breezed through it but I really didn’t enjoy it all too much and by the 15-20 hour mark I was ready for it to end.

God Hand, on the other hand, was fun as hell.

Somebody mentioned Killer 7 which I do love and really makes me happy to play because I just get this really unique feeling out of it and I appreciate so much how they can take a concept that’s really overused (a bunch of guys running around shooting things) and turn it into a completely different game than you’re used to and design it very well around that element.

I haven’t played No More Heroes but I really want to.

I have never gotten a huge thrill out of Zelda games except for A Link to the Past and Majora’s Mask, but I have a feeling if I go back and play Majora’s Mask I’ll hate it.

Also Dead Space, I’m not too impressed with what I saw but I do have it and I’ll be playing it soon I’m sure.

The pseudo-point I’m trying to make here is that I hate shooter games and I want some really obscure, offbeat games you’ve encountered that really made your heart flutter. Suggestions like Psychonauts and Okami are still within that known game realm that I’m familiar with. I guess what I’m really looking for are games that more people think are bad but you liked. Games that, despite the flaws, really make the grade in fun or interestingness. The kind of games people passed up because reviewers didn’t get what the point of them were, but they still rocked.

If you recall I was on a huge Bulletwitch kick. That game obviously isn’t very good but I was constantly drawn to it because of some elements that really grabbed me. I want to experience stuff like that. I guess that’s kind of hypocritical because that game was also a shooter, but it did offer me things that were different enough for me to care about it instead of being a game about world war 2 where you shoot world war 2 guns and kill nazis.

I’m BACK YEAH.

I went and visited Suzy for a while and had tons of fun. But now I’m back and it’s time to WORK.

I’m working on so many things GODDDDDDDDDDD I played a couple games recently and they are all kinda lame but cool. I really want to find another game I can go crazy about and really just rave about endlessly like Braid. Any suggestions? Old or new. I wanna DISCOVER.

So uhm… not much to say. That picture that’s my icon here is a new picture I drew of my character FX. She’s pretty sweet, I based her off of Virt’s FX albums.

SO. Uhm.

Oh man… so Suzy and I went to Mickey’s Not So Scary Halloween Party for Halloween (among other things), and it was so much FUN. I missed Disney so much and going with her again was just the best thing ever, seriously, it was a total blast. This picture sums it up quite nicely.

Also this one.

Howdy folks. It’s that time again… time to sell some shit on Ebay!

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This time I’m selling a bunch of last gen games, plus a few Dreamcast hits to boot! There’s a lot of killer games in this set that I’m sad to see go!

Also, check out that thumbnail. That’s from Suzy’s latest photoshoot. Pretty awesome, huh? Here’s a bigger version. It was based on a white theme, in an outfit Suzy picked out herself. I can’t wait to see more, there’s a bunch of pictures from that shoot where she’s wearing horns!

Right now I’m juggling a bunch of projects as usual but I’m focusing a lot right now on a game Tomamoto and I are making. I guess I shouldn’t say much else at this point but I’m happy with the work I’ve done so far on it! We’ll probably be working into overdrive on it next week, I hope I hope!

In my free time I’ve been trying to get the achievements in Mega Man 9. Just got Invincible the other day, now I’m working on Peacekeeper and Conservationist! Those are real time suckers, but right now I’m ranked 50 for all clear time attack… I think my time was 33 minutes or so. Woo!