I’m kinda running out of stuff to sell but I got this huge PSX lot going on for 3 days, so if you’re a LAST MINUTE CHRISTMAS SHOPPER go ahead and check out this lot of 26 Playstation games!

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Tha’s all I got today. Stay cool. B)

I GET IT. YOU GUYS WANT TO SEE LEFT 4 AWESOME. GREAT.

I don’t do requests because I don’t make a movie unless I’m inspired to. If a bunch of people say to parody a game, it’s literally pointless to me because I’m sure there’s someone who would want to see Karate Bikini Awesome. Everybody likes all kinds of video games and saying “I want you to parody this game” is telling me NOTHING. I mean, I appreciate all the support, positive feedback and what not, I respond to EVERY PM I get to the best of my ability, but about 80% of my inbox is filled with “suggestions” and it’s getting to a point where I’ve heard nearly every game title on the planet turned into “Awesome _______” and it’s even worse when a new game comes out because I get a surge of people telling me to make Awesome INSERT NEW SHOOTER GAME HERE.

I’ll make what I have ideas to make. End of story. Your suggestions, while appreciated, are pointless.

Anyway Ross got commissioned by Playboy to make 3 new Gamer Tonight episodes, and he has asked me to reprise my roles as all of the male characters. Awesome! In the pure fun I was having recording lines, I got the idea to record Richard saying the most common words in the English Language. Ross then turned it into a challenge, inviting Gamer Tonight fans to rearrange the words to make Richard say funny, vulgar, or just plain weird shit. Personally, I’m waiting to see some wacky songs, and just generally fucked up deranged edits of the records themselves, instead of just rearranging words. Get creative, guys, I’m excited to see the results!

I have TWO more awesome cartoons planned among other less developed projects including the two games I mentioned in an earlier entry and one of the awesome cartoons will finally break the mold of video game parodies and I’m taking my hand at doing a cartoon parody. What cartoon? It’s anybody’s guess.

Also I’ve been playing Tatsunoko vs Capcom lately and it’s pretty cool. It loses its flair after a while, especially since THERE IS NO ONLINE PLAY because the Wii is TOTAL BULLSHIT. If there was more of a competitive circuit around my area I’d probably play it a bunch more but the lack of online play is ridiculous. Online play is the standard right now and if Nintendo can’t keep up they need to fuck off.

BUT I really want to look more into the Tatsunoko series after playing this game, and I think I’m going to do just that. Maybe I’ll talk more about that very soon when I do.

So I’ve been acting on all that shit I’ve said in my last post. Maybe not to an extreme extent, but to a point where it certainly makes a difference.

I’ve always known entertainment has been a huge part of my life, so I’ve been indulging in it more. I’ve made it a point to watch a new movie almost every morning to get me pumped, and it works pretty well. All things considered, the basic energy of a film, the analysis of the storytelling, character development, etc etc, it all inspires me in one way or another and gives me a different outlook on my day than just waking up and working.

I’ve been playing Fallout 3 a lot lately, too. It’s a game I thought I would hate but I’m strangely intrigued by it. I think what I like most about it is the huge world, and in the way it’s presented I’m not hugely pressured to accomplish any and everything. Games where you’re given a central goal that also allow you to explore and do your own thing are very frustrating for me because I’m always caught in the conflict of which is more important to the game. In a game like Fallout 3, though, the goal isn’t to save the world or anything, it’s just to find your dad. It’s a goal I’m not particularly interested in, in fact, I’d much rather help out side characters because their quests yield rewards for me. So I’m just really walking around this huge world exploring and learning and scavenging and battling. It’s fun.

I also enjoy the 50′s esque Dystopian world and that helps a lot so please don’t suggest I play Oblivion and Morrowind because I don’t CARE about those boring universes. I have never been interested in that very American Lord of the Rings inspired fantasy world with elves and orcs and shit. In fact I think Lord of the Rings is one of the most boring movie series ever.

Also I think I misjudged Left 4 Dead, it was a lot of fun after playing through a whole scenario last night. But as usual I hate the 1st person view. That’s one thing I loved about Fallout 3, you can switch to 3rd person and play in it forever. THANK GOD. I just wish they’d fix up the targeting in 3rd person, but I’m willing to live with it in order to not have to play the game in 1st person.

Anyway I’ve been feeling a lot better lately, thanks for all your kind words, I didn’t expect so many people to be so supportive! I’ve just been taking a much more chill approach to life right now and it feels very familiar and comfortable. I’m still working pretty hard but I’m not stressing out over taking some time out to not work hard, haha.

Take care ya’ll.

Hi folks.

I came back from spending some time with Suzy which was a lot of fun and much needed. I miss her on a regular basis and getting to see her again is always a very good thing. She shot some AMAZING pictures, some of her best yet in my opinion, check them out!

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I was there with her fortunately and got to see her work. What a professional! She’s the best at what she does there’s no doubt about it.
I’ve been working like a madman on a few projects… 2 games to be exact! I don’t remember if I mentioned them before but yeah, they’ve been taking up nearly all of my time. I haven’t had a chance to game, really. I played a bunch of Silent Hill Homecoming with Suzy, and it’s okay, a really mediocre Silent Hill, but it’s fun because I’m playing it with someone I love. I’ve noticed I’ve enjoyed playing games with other people more, whether it’s watching them play, or playing with them, or having them watch me. Do you get that way too? Even if it’s a huge quest type game, I usually enjoy it more with company. I’m glad I have company who’s willing to sit down and watch a 1 player game and not be bored.

I really need to game more… I feel like my work has taken up all of my time and I really need to find time for myself to relax. I feel so guilty not devoting my time to working, and that really stresses me out. I guess it’s all the pressure I feel to be the best, do my best, and I’m kinda losing sight of my old ideals of having fun and being comfortable doing things. I suppose I’m driven towards the goal of getting to the point where I can do that, where I’m financially stable to just relax and do what I want, but I just always need a project to work on. It’s weird because I wasn’t always like this… it’s just something I’ve developed. I think from all the pressure I feel as an artist who has a ton of eyes looking on me. Not that I don’t enjoy it, but I think it’s changed me some.

I remember long ago I had that idea of moving to the mountains or something and just exploring art for a year or two or something like that. Nowadays that kind of thing seems like a waste of time… but I still feel that deep inside me. I kinda wanna not have my heart pounding every second over all of the things in my life. I’m such a worry wart now and I don’t think I ever was, or at least was to the extent that I am now. I’m always so paranoid of what people will think of me, how people will react to what I do. I guess being in the public eye and having people expect things out of me does that to you… and I guess it’s just something I have to overcome. I just miss being opinionated, strong, fierce, focussed. I mean, part of me is focussed… moreso than ever… but I’m not focussed on all of the right things. There’s a lot about me I still don’t understand, and it’s a journey I still need to take.

I remember at one time I would say I had no regrets, and I’d never get depressed and people around me, everybody around me agreed with that. Those are the feelings I yearn for now. I get older and I feel like maybe it’s just a part of being older and transitioning into manhood, or maybe it’s just a part of everything that’s been happening around me. Regardless, it’s something that’s happening, and it’s something I feel like I might not have control over.

It’s funny, I have more of a voice than ever, but because of having more of a voice, I feel limited by it. Like, I shouldn’t have a voice. I should be neutral. I’ve had a ton of people PM me and e-mail me asking how I feel about people criticizing me. And of course I feel a certain way about it, but I’ve never really spoken out about it. I say I don’t care, but of course I care. I care about everything I do. About every topic, I care. But it’s just been drilled in my head for so long from being on the internet and being involved with certain things to not care, that my opinion doesn’t matter.

I’m just really sick of that attitude. I’m sick of feeling like I don’t have a voice, and I don’t have an opinion. I want to speak out, decide, feel strong about things. I want to cry about things, I want to laugh about others. I think everybody should speak their voice. Even if there are people who don’t care, if it’s important to YOU, then it’s important.

Godamnit I’m all mad and excited. I guess it’s strange that I’m opening up like this in public but WHATEVER it feels good to let all this out to people like this. I had a Livejournal once and I would talk about my trite day every day. And I go back and read some shit, and I realize from someone else’s perspective, it sounds stupid and irrelevant, but to me, it was the most important thing in the world, and remembering that feeling is fantastic, it’s uplifting, it’s liberating.

I really need to care about myself before I care about others. I’ve been kind of bypassing me in order to entertain, care for, and live with others in my life. I don’t think that’s right. I think it’s right to care for others, but to completely ignore yourself in the process, and feel like an ass when you do something for yourself isn’t right.

I don’t care if you didn’t read all of this just writing it felt good.