Gotta get this out.
Monday, December 7th, 2009Hey guys.
I love you, so I want to be honest about something.
Being in the spotlight for a long enough time makes you feel a lot of pressures, you know, that you should keep doing what everybody likes, that you need to stick to something, that sort of thing, but I’m a creative guy, my mind is all over the place, and I can’t stop the ideas and thoughts from coming out. I get passionate about certain things, and when I feel like it’s completed, or done, I move on to a new project, a new idea.
Right now I’m focusing on a puzzle game that will be finished a little over a month from now and be released online in Flash, specifically on Newgrounds. It will be a lot of fun (it already is) and it will hopefully stick around for a while. I have a few more ideas for a sequel or different versions of it.
This project is taking up all of my time, and I’m not going to pretend like I’m working on a new awesome cartoon or whatever, basically everything else is on hold. Well, that’s not true, I do write, and organize notes constantly about other future projects in my downtime, and I have a LOT of future projects.
Basically, what I’m saying is, I’m not a one trick pony, and it’s hard to balance that image and myself. Arin. My life and my passions are far more than animating video game parodies, and as of late those passions have taken the front seat.
I used to be incredibly disorganized, wasted a lot of time, that sort of thing. But I’ve learned over time how to accomplish things, learn, study, get things done. So I do that, but I can only do so much at one time, you know? Having so much under my belt, you know, the awesome series, Girlchan, Lemon ‘n Bill, it’s kind of a shot in the foot, telling the world I’m going to be sticking to conventions, staying with a flow, but those kinds of flows are outside of my current situation.
I feel like I’ve done this kind of thing often, you know, saying the awesome series was over, making an Awesome DVD, but I want to be straight about WHY. The reason is that… I’m human. I get excited and bored easily, I love exploring new possibilities, new ways to tell jokes, new ways to play games, make games, the world is a sandbox. I’ve given up on working on great ideas I’ve had for flash movies because I thought my time would be better spent making an awesome cartoon or a Girlchan.
It’s not that I’ve been playing to the crowd, it’s that I’ve been limiting myself to the crowd. It’s like, I don’t try to force it out, but I only really listen to myself when it comes out about those topics, you know? I’ve been wanting that to change, and I think being public about it is a step forward.
I know everybody who visits this blog, who watches my twitter, who is friends on facebook with me is a fan of the Awesome series, or Girlchan, or god forbid Lemon ‘n Bill haha. I am so grateful to you all, but with that I am also asking you to understand me as a person as well. I guess it’s in bad form to be so personal about my work, but that’s just how I am, I like being personal with fans, it is something that I always have wished about the people I admire, and I would hate to be that guy who does great things but is kind of a standoffish dick, haha.
So, I’m truly sorry that a new awesome cartoon is taking so long to come out, a new girlchan taking so long to come out, lemon ‘n bill is not weekly like I promised, but, you know, things happen, energies transfer, lives change. I feel like I stress myself out over trying to get something serial out, stay consistent, but when it comes down to it, I’m the least consistent person ever. I am all over the place, and I always want to change and do different things. I don’t want you to think I’m being mean or lazy by not making an awesome cartoon or whatever, the complete opposite. I’m working constantly.
I am not saying there will be no more awesome cartoons or girlchan, the idea of new ones excites me, but I can’t really say for sure when or what they will be. Everybody wants an answer, and I can’t really give you any. I suppose you can admire the beauty of the unpredictability of my work. After all, comedy is the unexpected.
But I’ve promised Metal Gear Awesome 3, Girlchan 3, and new Lemon ‘n Bills, and they will exist. Just how and when, I cannot really say right now. It seems silly for me to tell you to stick with me on that note, especially since I neglect my blog so much (FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER DAMNIT) but I’m always creating, ALWAYS, that is the one thing I am absolutely sure of, so I always try to keep things interesting to some degree. =)
When this game is finished, I have a bunch of projects to start on. What one interests me the most at that time will be the one I pursue. Games, movies, anything. Who knows? You’ll probably hear about it, though.
I feel a little better having written this. Once again I’m eternally grateful for the support everybody has given me for my work. And once again I’m not saying anything is coming to an end, but that I am a human being, I am an artist, I need to explore all of my ideas, all of my passions, and giving myself an aneurysm about making something I don’t particularly want to make right now is not something I feel like I have the energy to deal with.
